irritating.
argh! not exactly a very good day. gettin grumpier n more easily irritable. muz b the vday cumin syndrome. rahness. okok. myab im juz pms-ing. sumtimes i juz feel insignificant in the world. and yet as insignificant as i am, im still bogged down by tests homework blah. tryin ta struggle with my studies. n its like. i might be the only one left in lit now. wow. so now im more then eva segregated frm the class. how wonderful. i dunno. y m in tj. wtf m i doing here. ruinin my own life. sumtimes i juz feel so dman 'out'. n eff it. it isnt such a great feeling. n no im not goin ta start blamin anyone for ruining my life if u get wad i mean. yes im a mean ass. it isnt helpin dat i dun hav much of a life in tj. so im a grumpy boring mean ass.move bitch get outta way get outta way bitch get outta way.
reminds me so much of art days. haz. but its so my song now since i hav like pent up anger in me. for god knows why reasons. n the above line was not directed at anyone. juz a song dat seems so nice ta yell with, in my current stae of part depression part angsty part isolated mood. in case ppl think im tryin ta badmouth anyone. no ok. no. dun hallucinate. thank u.
Rainy Days
Mary J Blige n Ja Rule
It's just those rainy days
Spend a lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun come out and shines again
Smile for me, smile for me
[Ja Rule]
Yea baby
Sometimes the Rule don't mind the rain
It kinda feels like I'm drownin in the Lords pain
Until the sun comes out and shines again
Smile, and give me reason to keep believin
That everything ain't misleadin
And I, kiss the clouds on them rainy days
And, smile for you when ya skys are gray
Babe, cuz I'm a tear drop away from cryin
And a few shots away from dyin
Dear Lord, would you shower my pain
Let it rain, let it rain on me
While I cherish the air I breathe
I'm an angel, that can't soar, can't fly
And I, mastered it Lord knows why
[Mary]
It's just those rainy days
Spend a lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun come out and shines again
Smile for me, smile for me
[Mary]
I feel like an angel
With my broken wings
So I can soar again
Lord let me in
Baby through all the passion the pain and the hurt
I feel like I'm fallin, yeah
Makin clothes for all of those that
Spread love
And for those who can't take it
Stand up
Baby, we gonna make it
In the words of Marvin Gaye
War is not the answer
Cuz nobody loves the rain
[Ja Rule] Can't stand it
We know we've seen it before
[Mary] Baby, handle it
Baby, what did we tell ya before
About chasin those waterfalls
[Both] Yeah...
[Mary] Nobody loves the rain
[Ja Rule] Can't stand it
We know we've seen it before
[Mary] Baby, handle itBaby, what did we tell ya before
About chasin those waterfalls
[Both] Yeah...
[Mary]It's just those rainy days
Spend a lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun come out and shines again
Smile for me, smile for me
[Ja Rule]All of those rainy days
Spend ya lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun shines and I see your face
Smile at me, smile at me
